This was a question posed to me by my co-worker today as we face an organizational restructuring in our department.
There was a long pause as I bit my lip because I didn't want to answer the question. She apparently already knew my answer. "You would have a family?"
She's right. The one thing I want to be is the one thing I have absolutely no control over. (Which is kind of a joke given how much of a control freak I am.) I have no control over when I meet someone. I have no control over whether I get pregnant. In fact, from what my OBGYN tells me, it will be hard for me to get pregnant. Or at least stay pregnant.
The question is why I hestitate in telling people that my "dream job" is to be a mother. Being a mother is honorable, being a mother is virtuous. But in this day in age, it isn't 'impressive'. Given that being a mother was once revered, I'm not sure why that is or how it happened...
I hope to though... one day... be a mother....
There was a long pause as I bit my lip because I didn't want to answer the question. She apparently already knew my answer. "You would have a family?"
She's right. The one thing I want to be is the one thing I have absolutely no control over. (Which is kind of a joke given how much of a control freak I am.) I have no control over when I meet someone. I have no control over whether I get pregnant. In fact, from what my OBGYN tells me, it will be hard for me to get pregnant. Or at least stay pregnant.
The question is why I hestitate in telling people that my "dream job" is to be a mother. Being a mother is honorable, being a mother is virtuous. But in this day in age, it isn't 'impressive'. Given that being a mother was once revered, I'm not sure why that is or how it happened...
I hope to though... one day... be a mother....
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